love

For all intents and purposes I am Mary Jo.

Yesterday brings up a large question; what is love?

I have been in love many times, unfortunately--or fortunately depending on your views of love-- they have all been with unattainable people. A boy who was taken, a guy that had no interest in me and a gay male.

When asking the question, what is love? People have given me many answers-- the complete giving of one's self. Rather wanting to fight with someone instead of making love with someone else. Finally, at least from the three I can recall-- when you are with the other person you feel complete.

but honestly, what does it all mean? Is love an idea, an emotion, a physical being?

I'm still just waiting for someone to love that can love me back in the same moment. Whatever that means.

You have to be the change to make the change.

I am so tired of having people around me wanting to have change but not willing to put forth the effort for it. I am with an organization that was made to change things to make being on staff more enjoyable and to work for the staff. Yet, every meeting is the same, we haven't finished this yet-- we haven't sent out information yet, we'll do it later. Then people wonder why nothing ever gets done. I'm sick of this. You have to be the change to make the change.
One of my favorite ecologists, Edward Ricketts, was big on the belief that to change things and discover things you must do. You can't worry about what will happen or will it be cost efficient--will you waste too much time and money doing it? If you do, in the end you will still be wondering and you will be wasting much more time than if you just did it.
Is it human stubbornness that makes us not follow through with actions or is it simply fear? If it is a cause we want to push through and are for it should not be stubbornness--but fear doesn't quite fit either. It must be laziness.

I'm going to stop writing and I'm going to just do.

dftba
danielle